Blogland is Quiet & A Real Update

Hi Blogging Buddies,

Ok, is it just me or is Blogland oh-so quiet, like the Bjork song?

A lot of my fav blogs have gone on hiatus, which happens to all of us. So, any good, fun blogs that you guys read that you think I’d enjoy?

How are you all doing?

I’ve been so busy emailing/phoning/harassing people at school just to get some black and white answers, it’s been super annoying. I can be a very impatient person so this run around is driving me nuts. Hopefully I can get some definite answers soon! I’m SO ready to go back to school!

As for the weight loss, things have been a mix of good and bad. The good is that I’ve been losing, consistently. The bad is that I haven’t been tracking and I didn’t meet my Halloween goal, super bummed about that. So while I have been losing, I’m not very happy with myself about being so slack with all the healthy habits I know work. I know that without exercising those healthy habits, even though I might be losing now, doesn’t mean I’ll be consistently losing till December or January. Sometimes I don’t get me. As it’s been said a gazillion times, losing weight isn’t rocket science, lots of people have done it, it’s possible so why am I still dragging my heels like I don’t think it will happen for me?

I was at school yesterday to submit some things and get this ball rolling. I went once before a month ago but its been years since I was there before that. Yesterday I was awkward. Walking up 4 flights of stairs left me close to breathless. I was tugging on my clothes, trying my hardest to hide behind my massive purse. I was on my phone, with my earbuds in listening to my iPod. I wasn’t smiling, I didn’t look around, I had tunnel vision. Totally unapproachable. And why? For what? Obviously I felt insecure and that makes me go into shut down mode, not okay.

If the only thing that is going to make me feel more comfortable is losing weight (and forcing myself to stop acting like an idiot), I better get serious (for the 200th time, honestly).

I know that when school starts I’m doing to busy, that’s a given. When I was in school before I was busy too but I made time for things. I took weekends off to be with my best friend. I made time to do things with my mama and my siblings because they’re my whole world. I still talked to my boyfriend everyday. On breaks, in class, on my way home, at night. I fit everything in. A healthy lifestyle HAS to fit in there. I’m going to have to remember to pack healthy lunches and snacks, have my tracker with me, and have my 1L water bottle with me.

I’m going to dedicate November to fully embracing a healthy lifestyle.

Yay!